Vanishing Stars

Come back to me - David Cook

2009-11-30T02:28:00Z

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

You say you're leaving as you look away
I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm here whenever you need me I'll wait for you

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

Take your time, I won't go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

I can't get close if you're not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul there
I can't face you, I can't save you
It's something you'll have to do

Monsoon

2009-11-24T07:18:23Z

I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold, it's making me insane

I've been waitin' here so long
Another moment seems to have come
I see the dark clouds comin' up again

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world 'til the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm into the blue

And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon just me and you

A half moon fading from my sight
I see your vision in it's light
But now it's gone and left me so alone

I'll know I have to find you now
Can hear you name and don't know how
Why can't we make this darkness feel like home?

And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon, hey, hey

I'm fighting all this power coming in my way
Let it take me straight to you
I've been running night and day

I'll be with you soon just me and you
We'll be there soon, so soon

Through the monsoon
Just me and you

dinzie @ 2009-11-24T14:59:00

2009-11-24T06:59:18Z

I'd give you whatever that makes you happy.
whatever you want.
Even if it means......

dinzie @ 2009-11-24T14:33:00

2009-11-24T06:33:15Z

"It's hard to pretend you
love someone when you don't,
but its harder to pretend that
you don't love someone when you really do."

dinzie @ 2009-11-24T14:23:00

2009-11-24T06:23:12Z

I've never done this.
I don't know how to do it.
I just don't.

I don't wanna wake up to this nightmare.

dinzie @ 2009-11-24T14:16:00

2009-11-24T06:16:22Z

please don't just appear in my dreams anymore.
come back to reality.

as I walked out of the staff entrance,
I looked to my right.
But as I turned to my left,
there you are,
right behind me...
with a white package.
=)

dinzie @ 2009-11-23T01:07:00

2009-11-22T17:07:49Z

I hate the feeling of helplessness.
I just wish you'd tell me what's wrong earlier
so I could be there for you.
All I want is to be there for you
and make you feel better.

Now, it all fell apart.
Running into the arms of a 'friend'?
.......

It hurts not knowing.

dinzie @ 2009-11-21T02:14:00

2009-11-20T18:14:33Z

so many regrets going through my head.
I should have listened.
Now I'm missing the things I love most.

dinzie @ 2009-11-21T01:55:00

2009-11-20T17:55:54Z

No more hugs or kisses.

How can I not miss you.

Say goodbye

2009-11-20T17:51:08Z

Baby
come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know,
this thing ain't been no walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish,
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand
'cause I know

There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart

the worst part

2009-11-03T04:45:48Z

drowned in self pity

It feels like a heartbreak

2009-11-03T01:33:30Z

*creeks*

dinzie @ 2009-10-30T15:13:00

2009-10-30T07:14:11Z

everyone's a fucking hypocrite!

dinzie @ 2009-10-30T15:06:00

2009-10-30T07:07:47Z

it bothers me.
i think we're losing it.

Drive

2009-10-27T05:30:24Z

Sometimes,
I feel the fear of uncertainty stinging clear.
And I can't help but ask myself how much
I'll let the fear take the wheel and steer.

It's driven me before,
and it seems to have a vague,
haunting mass appeal.
But lately I am beginning to find that
I should be the one behind the wheel.

Whatever tomorrow brings,
I'll be there with open arms and open eyes.

So if I decide to waiver my chance to be one of the hive
will I choose water over wine and hold my own and drive?
It's driven me before
and it seems to be the way that everyone else gets around.
But lately I'm beginning to find that
when I drive myself my light is found.

Would you kill the Queen to crush the hive?
Would you choose water over wine....
hold the wheel and drive?

dinzie @ 2009-10-27T12:46:00

2009-10-27T04:47:07Z

I think about it all the time....

Sunrise

2009-10-27T04:45:39Z

There's always a positive side to things.
Not always.

Well, this makes me clear what I want.
and where do I go from here on out.

Its the parents I have to deal with.

Goodbye.

Sunset

2009-10-27T04:43:40Z

When the sun goes down...
Darkness prevail.

Everything is gonna change.
EVERYTHING.
The change is too overwhelming for me
to go through it alone.

I've lost people I tried to hold on to.
Please don't take them away from me this time.

22nd October 2009

2009-10-27T04:14:25Z

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY
to my
most AWESOMERST Bitch!

Baby... I wanna thank you for all that you've done for me. Really... I haven't been a good girlfriend to you. I'm sorry. I just hope you have the best birthday ever! I'm sorry my surprise didn't work out. =( I did try to get shaney and james. I hope you like the polar bear and enjoyed the evening out.... I love you dearest! I'm sorry I have to leave you. But I'm not worried. I know that you'll do just fine. You have sammy... Cheerios! <3

Everybody's changing

2009-10-27T01:33:21Z

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can

You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Since everybody's changing
And I don't know why.

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same.

You're gone from here
Soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
'cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right.

dinzie @ 2009-10-20T13:37:00

2009-10-20T05:39:07Z

Animal Behaviorists train zoo employees how to interact with and successfully care for animals. They are usually trained in ethology (the study of animal behavior in natural habitats) and have had direct experience working with animals themselves.

Daily tasks for zoology careers
With such a wide range of different zoology careers, daily tasks vary enormously. Here are a few of the key tasks in some of the roles.

A zookeeper's role includes:
Preparing animals' meals.
Caring for the animals.
Cleaning enclosures.
Monitoring and recording behavior.
Ensuring that animals are healthy.
Grooming, exercising and training the animals.
Talking to visiting groups about the animals; etc.

Amongst other duties, a wildlife educator will:
Reside at the venue and study, research and explore various intricacies of wildlife behavior.
Research and write information to be printed as leaflets, brochures, etc.
Write information for websites.
Prepare information for educational visits.
Design and prepare displays.
Buy or rear animals for exhibiting; etc.

A researcher will:
Run experiments.
Identify new data achieved through research.
Use data to help solve environmental or health problems.
Breed and raise specimens.
Dissect animals and preserve their bodies.
Use computers, microscopes, and other equipment to analyze and record their findings.
Prepare collections of preserved specimens or slides for identification and study.
Research species in their natural surroundings.
Collect specimens to study in the lab.
Collect or catalog species.
Write papers and give speeches.
Prepare grant proposals to gain funding; etc.

A rehabilitator will:
Care for ill, injured or orphaned wild animals and birds.
Release them back in to their habitat.
Acquire relevant permits from state and federal wildlife agencies; etc.

Would a zoologists career suit you?
To pursue a career in zoology, you first need to gain knowledge in biology, mathematics and chemistry. A degree in education is important: you'll need at least a first degree in biological science. If you want a zoology career within research then a masters and doctoral degree are necessary.

Working conditions vary widely. Most zoology careers offer full-time positions, and involve either working in a laboratory, or outside in the animals' habitats. Travel to conferences or other organizations is more likely if there is more responsibility with the position. There are always low risks when working with animals, such as bites or stings, kicks or contact injuries. In many positions, there is a low level of social contact with other people.

Teaching in academic institutions can inspire some, but others may find it boring and too distant from the subject: the animals.

dinzie @ 2009-10-14T09:16:00

2009-10-14T01:18:16Z

~Now i can say that i would not care,
if you were not there.
Tell myself that i'll be fine without ya
but i would die if i was not around ya.
And i can try to convince you
i don't need to be with you,
but my only thoughts are thoughts about ya.~

dinzie @ 2009-10-11T01:06:00

2009-10-10T17:07:48Z

I dont care.
But I miss you.

Can you hear the sadness in my voice?
=/

fucking bitch.

2009-10-04T20:39:57Z

I shall not go down to your level...

train rides and tears

2009-10-04T20:38:55Z

I need to drown myself in GG and OTH marathon. =/

The song is stuck in my head.
It's on replay.
=/

So many things on my mind.
I tried to push it to the back of my head.
It doesnt matter anymore.
It's not supposed to.
Really...

I wanted you to.....

=/